God shows up when you least expect it. I said that based on experience, as I’m finally redeeming my faith to a new religion. I asked for signs since my time for divine consciousness began. I was in the verge of resolving which road to travel from the meandering paths placed before me. I was in a state of turmoil, of disturbing confusion wistfully thinking if religion is actually a necessity in one’s life.

Of course, answers won’t just pop out right then and there. I’ve been surrounded by different people from all walks of life, all with diverse religions and diverse opinions–or should I say–beliefs. They’ve gave me hints of ideas. On the other hand, they’ve made me more baffled. I remember falling to a stage of utter disbelief. Purporting to be agnostic, I tried getting rid of spiritualism off my system. I didn’t go to church, nor even pray.

Yet, during those dark ages, I often felt like there’s something missing, and everything seems so wrong with this world. I experience mishaps more than a layman’s life entails. Right then and there, I felt so empty. Material possessions could only suffice as merely an appetizer to spoil my insatiable thirst for happiness. Everybody wants to be happy, no matter how it is defined. Read the rest of this entry »